Farewell, my shovely

I've now played nearly 1,000 MTTs of one style or another, and I've only come in first twice. What this means in practical terms is that 99.8% of the time, I'm going to lose the final hand of a tournament. I'm going to get all my chips in the middle, and then go bust. I often go back to the archives to look at the final hand of a tournament, to see if I got my money in good. If I did, that's a "Farewell, my shovely" situation. This translates roughly to:

1. I had a hand good enough to shove with
2. I shoved accordingly
3. I ended up losing the hand, but have no regrets

Last night, the first two tournaments I played were "Farewell, my shovelies". In the first one, my final hand was pocket kings. In the second, my final hand was KQo (king queen offsuit).

style flavor buy_in entry players hands entries paid place winnings

MTT   NLHE    43500  6500       9     4      58   12     -        0
MTT-R NLHE    43500  6500       9    43      69   15    52        0
MTT   NLHE    17500  2500       6    60     333   84    58    40700

delta: $-179,300
MTT NLHE balance: $2,601,668
2017 balance: $9,143,525
balance: $20,561,355